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Being dumped from a horse reminded one woman to live as herself, no longer trying to become someone else’s idea of her, in a role that wasn’t hers to fill
I have experienced many ‘awakenings to myself’.
I want to tell you of one that shook me profoundly — one that guided me to trust and start my path as a lightworker — the moment my life created a momentum of expansion into the fullness of my purpose.
It started with a fall…as they often do. Clearly, I was being called to pay attention — to see the writing on the Universal wall.
It was Thanksgiving 2011, and I had just moved to Vancouver, an aspiring actress trying to build an acting career while also amid a drama-filled relationship.
I felt lost in a bad script.
That holiday evening, a friend, knowing my deep kinship with horses, brought me to a riding stable. As I confidently mounted a horse, I immediately felt something was off. After a few minutes trotting, the powerful animal beneath me suddenly started to gallop. I could feel it’s discomfort as my gut sank. Within moments, despite being an experienced rider, I was thrown out of my saddle — thrust to the ground.
When I got up, shaken yet intact, I knew the animal was connecting with my spirit; the broken, shaken, insecure parts of me. Horses, like many other animals sense our emotions, especially our fear. I knew then that not only was my spirit out of alignment (and had been for some time) — I was being asked to listen to what I already knew and to slow down.
Soon, I started to tune into my inner body in a new way, listening to what I was asked to become. Spirit spoke loudly — and this time I heard it. I knew that I desired to walk on a new path.
I desired to serve and find joy in living as myself, no longer trying to become someone else’s idea of me, in some role that wasn’t mine to play.
A voice told me to quit my restaurant job, to trust and to create work that made me happy — that made my soul sing. Heeding this inspiration, I asked for and manifested a position as a social worker with at-risk youth. As I tapped into myself more, I knew I had to release my attachment to other things in my life as well, like my partner. So, I listened.
I left my relationship and later learned that my ex had physically abused other women.
As I opened up, spiritual teachers came into my life, insisting that I too was a lightworker.
I started to release my previous identities as an actress, or a waitress, or a girlfriend…and I simply allowed the unfolding of myself.
I recognized what I came here for — to become me.
I finally began to intuitively create my life through the energy coaching work I felt called to for years.
I sit here in radical appreciation for this intuitive journey as it continuously invites me to expand into the fullness of my purpose. Open, allowing our source to speak — to be seen, felt, heard — followed.
I am sharing this message with you as it channels through, as an invitation to share yours. That is all there is. You know what you want. And only you know what you must do to create it.
Trust your inner voice. You are always exactly where you need to be to hear your truth. There is so much love here for you.
How delicious, inspired, and peaceful your life becomes once you allow your essence to guide it. It is your birthright to know who you are.
You are the divine creator of your life, and your intuition is the only guru you will ever need to make it happen.
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